Thank you, Thank you with all of my heart!!

When the tides of surprises takes you by its forces, all you feel is the strong waves of tides against you and you are there facing it with all your might. Trying hard not to be swept away by it, trying to bear it, trying hard and harder. That’s how life gets at times when you are out there in the world trying to fight the rawness bitter-sweet of all the worldly experiences alone. And at times, you miss it, you miss the comfort zone you were once at, you miss your mom and dad. Parents, that’s what we call them, the one who gave birth to us, who gave us this life, this dear life to us.

We are growing up fast, and at times we fail to look through them. My parents have given me all I ever wanted and needed. I don’t know how to put it into words, I am not much of a writer but then when urges are there, as strong as this, I can’t help but write it down in my best possible ways.

Tonight I feel this intense pain of happiness both mixed together, of how much I have miss out so much about them. I have failed to be a good daughter. I have failed it miserably. But one thing is true, no matter how old I get, or how busy I get with my life, I will miss them, even after 10 years if they are around me in the living room watching a comedy show laughing together heart fully, I will miss them.

It just any other night but for me tonight the timber of reality hit me hard. It made me reflect back the purpose of my life. And confuse like always, I take refuge in the yesteryears of having my comfort zone with my parents around. Of how life used to be so simple and how everything made sense when they were around. Now that I am old, studying in college away from home, everything I do seems confusing and at times it breaks me apart and I end up missing them. I miss them when things get all messed up because there were times when they would sort out everything for me. I miss them when I get hungry even after I have eaten a full two plates (ha-ha) because nothing fills your tummy then your parent’s food made with love. I miss them when I am all alone and how the muteness around me haunts me because with them it is always laughter and fun. I miss them when I try to get serious about my life, my future,  when I try to make a decisions, when I try to be bold in front of people around me but I end up getting hurt. I miss how everything was warm and sunny with them.  I miss them in everything I do.

“Parents”, the word itself rings the happiness and the rhythmic soothing assurance of their presence in our life.  For now, all I can wish for them is to be happy and in good health, and wait till I am an able person for them.

Dearest parents of mine, tonight I wanna thank you for everything. For making me who I am today. For letting me believe in myself and my dreams. For letting me experience this outside world out of my comfort zone and grooming me for a better tomorrow. For letting me be a part of your beautiful world. For making my childhood an awesome chapter of my life. For teaching me things, patiently, to survive in this world of ups and downs when you both knew how much of a slow learner I was and I still am. For showing me what is good and bad. For making me understand people, people of different types and not be a judgmental though most of the times I tend to fail in it. For making me realize that bringing happiness to others and to oneself soothes one’s mind. For teaching me to dance and sing, to live life as it comes by but not to forget to pray to god when in good times. For making me believe, as long as there is sky above us and ocean below us, this world is after all a happy place to live in. For teaching me that, sometimes miracle happens and feeling content with what you have is all that counts. For teaching me that, hard work always pays off. For bringing me up patiently with much care and love. For granting all my wishes and demands. For being there for me always and I know when I was young I used to get constantly sick and how both of you took turns to stay beside me and look after me, thank you for everything. Thank you for always bringing gifts and cakes whenever you went out for work. Thank you for always celebrating my victory, be it me winning a debate competition or a balloon game (ha-ha).  For coming to my concerts just to see me dance on the stage and waving at me when I would search for you in the crowd while on the stage. For boasting about my grades to your friends and how you both were and still are proud of me. For seeing me off when I went for camps or trip to other schools or other places, both of you used to make a fuss about it as if I was going to other country ha-ha. For packing me delicious lunch and tying my shoe laces. For remembering all the smallest details about me. For making me grow out of my comfort zone. For all the things uncountable list of things you did for me all this while. For giving me all the happiness and all the love, all the care, all the good lessons, all the mantras of leading a happy life. Apa and Ama, thank you for everything. I hope to be up to your expectations.

For now all I can do is type it out, type it out in my feelings and express it in words for you both.